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Never Let Me Go(2005),Kazuo Ish…

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简介:本文档为《Never Let Me Go(2005),Kazuo Ishiguropdf》,可适用于人文社科领域,主题内容包含wwwintexbloggercomNOTFORSALEThisPDFFilewascreatedforeducational,scholarly,符等。

wwwintexbloggercomNOTFORSALEThisPDFFilewascreatedforeducational,scholarly,andInternetarchivaluseONLYfromthistextoritsdistributionWithutmostrespectandcourtesytotheauthor,NOmoneyorprofitwilleverbemadeformoreebooks,visitwwwintexbloggercomNeverLetMeGoKazuoIshiguroFromtheacclaimedauthorof“TheRemainsoftheDay”and“WhenWeWereOrphans,”amovingnewnovelthatsubtlyreimaginesourworldandtimeinahauntingstoryoffriendshipandloveAsachild,Kathy–nowthirtyoneyearsold–livedatHailsham,aprivateschoolinthescenicEnglishcountrysidewherethechildrenwereshelteredfromtheoutsideworld,broughtuptobelievethattheywerespecialandthattheirwellbeingwascrucialnotonlyforthemselvesbutforthesocietytheywouldeventuallyenterKathyhadlongagoputthisidyllicpastbehindher,butwhentwoofherHailshamfriendscomebackintoherlife,shestopsresistingthepullofmemoryAndso,asherfriendshipwithRuthisrekindled,andasthefeelingsthatlongagofueledheradolescentcrushonTommybegintodeepenintolove,KathyrecallstheiryearsatHailshamShedescribeshappyscenesofboysandgirlsgrowinguptogether,unperturbed–evencomforted–bytheirisolationButshedescribesotherscenesaswell:ofdiscordandmisunderstandingthathintatadarksecretbehindHailsham'snurturingfacadeWiththedawningclarityofhindsight,thethreefriendsarecompelledtofacethetruthabouttheirchildhood–andabouttheirlivesnowAtaleofdeceptivesimplicity,“NeverLetMeGo”slowlyrevealsanextraordinaryemotionaldepthandresonance–andtakesitsplaceamongKazuoIshiguro'sfinestworkNeverLetMeGoAnovelbyKazuoIshiguroToLornaandNaomiEngland,latesPartOneChapterOneMynameisKathyHI'mthirtyoneyearsold,andI'vebeenacarernowforoverelevenyearsThatsoundslongenough,Iknow,butactuallytheywantmetogoonforanothereightmonths,untiltheendofthisyearThat'llmakeitalmostexactlytwelveyearsNowIknowmybeingacarersolongisn'tnecessarilybecausetheythinkI'mfantasticatwhatIdoTherearesomereallygoodcarerswho'vebeentoldtostopafterjusttwoorthreeyearsAndIcanthinkofonecareratleastwhowentonforalloffourteenyearsdespitebeingacompletewasteofspaceSoI'mnottryingtoboastButthenIdoknowforafactthey'vebeenpleasedwithmywork,andbyandlarge,IhavetooMydonorshavealwaystendedtodomuchbetterthanexpectedTheirrecoverytimeshavebeenimpressive,andhardlyanyofthemhavebeenclassifiedas“agitated,”evenbeforefourthdonationOkay,maybeIamboastingnowButitmeansalottome,beingabletodomyworkwell,especiallythatbitaboutmydonorsstaying“calm”I'vedevelopedakindofinstinctarounddonorsIknowwhentohangaroundandcomfortthem,whentoleavethemtothemselveswhentolistentoeverythingtheyhavetosay,andwhenjusttoshrugandtellthemtosnapoutofitAnyway,I'mnotmakinganybigclaimsformyselfIknowcarers,workingnow,whoarejustasgoodanddon'tgethalfthecreditIfyou'reoneofthem,Icanunderstandhowyoumightgetresentful–aboutmybedsit,mycar,aboveall,thewayIgettopickandchoosewhoIlookafterAndI'maHailshamstudent–whichisenoughbyitselfsometimestogetpeople'sbacksupKathyH,theysay,shegetstopickandchoose,andshealwayschoosesherownkind:peoplefromHailsham,oroneoftheotherprivilegedestatesNowondershehasagreatrecordI'vehearditsaidenough,soI'msureyou'vehearditplentymore,andmaybethere'ssomethinginitButI'mnotthefirsttobeallowedtopickandchoose,andIdoubtifI'llbethelastAndanyway,I'vedonemyshareoflookingafterdonorsbroughtupineverykindofplaceBythetimeIfinish,remember,I'llhavedonetwelveyearsofthis,andit'sonlyforthelastsixthey'veletmechooseAndwhyshouldn'ttheyCarersaren'tmachinesYoutryanddoyourbestforeverydonor,butintheend,itwearsyoudownYoudon'thaveunlimitedpatienceandenergySowhenyougetachancetochoose,ofcourse,youchooseyourownkindThat'snaturalThere'snowayIcouldhavegoneonforaslongasIhaveifI'dstoppedfeelingformydonorseverystepofthewayAndanyway,ifI'dneverstartedchoosing,howwouldIeverhavegotcloseagaintoRuthandTommyafterallthoseyearsButthesedays,ofcourse,therearefewerandfewerdonorsleftwhoIremember,andsoinpractice,Ihaven'tbeenchoosingthatmuchAsIsay,theworkgetsalotharderwhenyoudon'thavethatdeeperlinkwiththedonor,andthoughI'llmissbeingacarer,itfeelsjustaboutrighttobefinishingatlastcometheendoftheyearRuth,incidentally,wasonlythethirdorfourthdonorIgottochooseShealreadyhadacarerassignedtoheratthetime,andIrememberittakingabitofnerveonmypartButintheendImanagedit,andtheinstantIsawheragain,atthatrecoverycentreinDover,allourdifferences–whiletheydidn'texactlyvanish–seemednotnearlyasimportantasalltheotherthings:likethefactthatwe'dgrownuptogetheratHailsham,thefactthatweknewandrememberedthingsnooneelsedidIt'seversincethen,Isuppose,Istartedseekingoutformydonorspeoplefromthepast,andwheneverIcould,peoplefromHailshamTherehavebeentimesovertheyearswhenI'vetriedtoleaveHailshambehind,whenI'vetoldmyselfIshouldn'tlookbacksomuchButthentherecameapointwhenIjuststoppedresistingIthadtodowiththisparticulardonorIhadonce,inmythirdyearasacareritwashisreactionwhenImentionedIwasfromHailshamHe'djustcomethroughhisthirddonation,ithadn'tgonewell,andhemusthaveknownhewasn'tgoingtomakeitHecouldhardlybreathe,buthelookedtowardsmeandsaid:“HailshamIbetthatwasabeautifulplace”Thenthenextmorning,whenIwasmakingconversationtokeephismindoffitall,andIaskedwherehe'dgrownup,hementionedsomeplaceinDorsetandhisfacebeneaththeblotcheswentintoacompletelynewkindofgrimaceAndIrealisedthenhowdesperatelyhedidn'twantremindedInstead,hewantedtohearaboutHailshamSooverthenextfiveorsixdays,Itoldhimwhateverhewantedtoknow,andhe'dliethere,allhookedup,agentlesmilebreakingthroughHe'daskmeaboutthebigthingsandthelittlethingsAboutourguardians,abouthowweeachhadourowncollectionchestsunderourbeds,thefootball,therounders,thelittlepaththattookyouallroundtheoutsideofthemainhouse,roundallitsnooksandcrannies,theduckpond,thefood,theviewfromtheArtRoomoverthefieldsonafoggymorningSometimeshe'dmakemesaythingsoverandoverthingsI'dtoldhimonlythedaybefore,he'daskaboutlikeI'dnevertoldhim“Didyouhaveasportspavilion”“Whichguardianwasyourspecialfavourite”AtfirstIthoughtthiswasjustthedrugs,butthenIrealisedhismindwasclearenoughWhathewantedwasnotjusttohearaboutHailsham,buttorememberHailsham,justlikeithadbeenhisownchildhoodHeknewhewasclosetocompletingandsothat'swhathewasdoing:gettingmetodescribethingstohim,sothey'dreallysinkin,sothatmaybeduringthosesleeplessnights,withthedrugsandthepainandtheexhaustion,thelinewouldblurbetweenwhatweremymemoriesandwhatwerehisThatwaswhenIfirstunderstood,reallyunderstood,justhowluckywe'dbeen–Tommy,Ruth,me,alltherestofusDrivingaroundthecountrynow,IstillseethingsthatwillremindmeofHailshamImightpassthecornerofamistyfield,orseepartofalargehouseinthedistanceasIcomedownthesideofavalley,evenaparticulararrangementofpoplartreesuponahillside,andI'llthink:“Maybethat'sit!I'vefoundit!ThisactuallyisHailsham!”ThenIseeit'simpossibleandIgoondriving,mythoughtsdriftingonelsewhereInparticular,therearethosepavilionsIspotthemalloverthecountry,standingonthefarsideofplayingfields,littlewhiteprefabbuildingswitharowofwindowsunnaturallyhighup,tuckedalmostundertheeavesIthinktheybuiltawholelotlikethatinthefiftiesandsixties,whichisprobablywhenourswasputupIfIdrivepastoneIkeeplookingovertoitforaslongaspossible,andonedayI'llcrashthecarlikethat,butIkeepdoingitNotlongagoIwasdrivingthroughanemptystretchofWorcestershireandsawonebesideacricketgroundsolikeoursatHailshamIactuallyturnedthecarandwentbackforasecondlookWelovedoursportspavilion,maybebecauseitremindedusofthosesweetlittlecottagespeoplealwayshadinpicturebookswhenwewereyoungIcanrememberusbackintheJuniors,pleadingwithguardianstoholdthenextlessoninthepavilioninsteadoftheusualroomThenbythetimewewereinSenior–whenweweretwelve,goingonthirteen–thepavilionhadbecometheplacetohideoutwithyourbestfriendswhenyouwantedtogetawayfromtherestofHailshamThepavilionwasbigenoughtotaketwoseparategroupswithoutthembotheringeachother–inthesummer,athirdgroupcouldhangaboutoutontheverandaButideallyyouandyourfriendswantedtheplacejusttoyourselves,sotherewasoftenjockeyingandarguingTheguardianswerealwaystellingustobecivilisedaboutit,butinpractice,youneededtohavesomestrongpersonalitiesinyourgrouptostandachanceofgettingthepavilionduringabreakorfreeperiodIwasn'texactlythewiltingtypemyself,butIsupposeitwasreallybecauseofRuthwegotinthereasoftenaswedidUsuallywejustspreadourselvesaroundthechairsandbenches–there'dbefiveofus,sixifJennyBcamealong–andhadagoodgossipTherewasakindofconversationthatcouldonlyhappenwhenyouwerehiddenawayinthepavilionwemightdiscusssomethingthatwasworryingus,orwemightendupscreamingwithlaughter,orinafuriousrowMostly,itwasawaytounwindforawhilewithyourclosestfriendsOntheparticularafternoonI'mnowthinkingof,wewerestandinguponstoolsandbenches,crowdingaroundthehighwindowsThatgaveusaclearviewoftheNorthPlayingFieldwhereaboutadozenboysfromouryearandSeniorhadgatheredtoplayfootballTherewasbrightsunshine,butitmusthavebeenrainingearlierthatdaybecauseIcanrememberhowthesunwasglintingonthemuddysurfaceofthegrassSomeonesaidweshouldn'tbesoobviousaboutwatching,butwehardlymovedbackatallThenRuthsaid:“Hedoesn'tsuspectathingLookathimHereallydoesn'tsuspectathing”Whenshesaidthis,IlookedatherandsearchedforsignsofdisapprovalaboutwhattheboysweregoingtodotoTommyButthenextsecondRuthgavealittlelaughandsaid:“Theidiot!”AndIrealisedthatforRuthandtheothers,whatevertheboyschosetodowasprettyremotefromuswhetherweapprovedornotdidn'tcomeintoitWeweregatheredaroundthewindowsatthatmomentnotbecausewerelishedtheprospectofseeingTommygethumiliatedyetagain,butjustbecausewe'dheardaboutthislatestplotandwerevaguelycurioustowatchitunfoldInthosedays,Idon'tthinkwhattheboysdidamongstthemselveswentmuchdeeperthanthatForRuth,fortheothers,itwasthatdetached,andthechancesarethat'showitwasformetooOrmaybeI'mrememberingitwrongMaybeeventhen,whenIsawTommyrushingaboutthatfield,undisguiseddelightonhisfacetobeacceptedbackinthefoldagain,abouttoplaythegameatwhichhesoexcelled,maybeIdidfeelalittlestabofpainWhatIdorememberisthatInoticedTommywaswearingthelightbluepoloshirthe'dgotintheSalesthepreviousmonth–theonehewassoproudofIrememberthinking:“He'sreallystupid,playingfootballinthatIt'llgetruined,thenhow'shegoingtofeel”Outloud,Isaid,tonooneinparticular:“Tommy'sgothisshirtonHisfavouritepoloshirt”Idon'tthinkanyoneheardme,becausetheywerealllaughingatLaura–thebigclowninourgroup–mimickingoneaftertheothertheexpressionsthatappearedonTommy'sfaceasheran,waved,called,tackledTheotherboyswereallmovingaroundthefieldinthatdeliberatelylanguorouswaytheyhavewhenthey'rewarmingup,butTommy,inhisexcitement,seemedalreadytobegoingfullpeltIsaid,louderthistime:“He'sgoingtobesosickifheruinsthatshirt”ThistimeRuthheardme,butshemusthavethoughtI'dmeantitassomekindofjoke,becauseshelaughedhalfheartedly,thenmadesomequipofherownThentheboyshadstoppedkickingtheballabout,andwerestandinginapackinthemud,theirchestsgentlyrisingandfallingastheywaitedfortheteampickingtostartThetwocaptainswhoemergedwerefromSenior,thougheveryoneknewTommywasabetterplayerthananyofthatyearTheytossedforfirstpick,thentheonewho'dwonstaredatthegroup“Lookathim,”someonebehindmesaid“He'scompletelyconvincedhe'sgoingtobefirstpickJustlookathim!”TherewassomethingcomicalaboutTommyatthatmoment,somethingthatmadeyouthink,well,yes,ifhe'sgoingtobethatdaft,hedeserveswhat'scomingTheotherboyswereallpretendingtoignorethepickingprocess,pretendingtheydidn'tcarewheretheycameintheorderSomeweretalkingquietlytoeachother,someretyingtheirlaces,othersjuststaringdownattheirfeetastheytrammelledthemudButTommywaslookingeagerlyattheSeniorboy,asthoughhisnamehadalreadybeencalledLaurakeptupherperformanceallthroughtheteampicking,doingallthedifferentexpressionsthatwentacrossTommy'sface:thebrighteageroneatthestartthepuzzledconcernwhenfourpickshadgonebyandhestillhadn'tbeenchosenthehurtandpanicasitbegantodawnonhimwhatwasreallygoingonIdidn'tkeepglancingroundatLaura,though,becauseIwaswatchingTommyIonlyknewwhatshewasdoingbecausetheotherskeptlaughingandeggingheronThenwhenTommywasleftstandingalone,andtheboysallbegansniggering,IheardRuthsay:“It'scomingHolditSevensecondsSeven,six,five…”ShenevergotthereTommyburstintothunderousbellowing,andtheboys,nowlaughingopenly,startedtorunofftowardstheSouthPlayingFieldTommytookafewstridesafterthem–itwashardtosaywhetherhisinstinctwastogiveangrychaseorifhewaspanickedatbeingleftbehindInanycasehesoonstoppedandstoodthere,glaringafterthem,hisfacescarletThenhebegantoscreamandshout,anonsensicaljumbleofswearwordsandinsultsWe'dallseenplentyofTommy'stantrumsbythen,sowecamedownoffourstoolsandspreadourselvesaroundtheroomWetriedtostartupaconversationaboutsomethingelse,buttherewasTommygoingonandoninthebackground,andalthoughatfirstwejustrolledoureyesandtriedtoignoreit,intheend–probablyafulltenminutesafterwe'dfirstmovedaway–wewerebackupatthewindowsagainTheotherboyswerenowcompletelyoutofview,andTommywasnolongertryingtodirecthiscommentsinanyparticulardirectionHewasjustraving,flinginghislimbsabout,atthesky,atthewind,atthenearestfencepostLaurasaidhewasmaybe“rehearsinghisShakespeare”Someoneelsepointedouthoweachtimehescreamedsomethinghe'draiseonefootofftheground,pointingitoutwards,“likeadogdoingapee”Actually,I'dnoticedthesamefootmovementmyself,butwhathadstruckmewasthateachtimehestampedthefootbackdownagain,flecksofmudflewuparoundhisshinsIthoughtagainabouthispreciousshirt,buthewastoofarawayformetoseeifhe'dgotmuchmudonit“Isupposeitisabitcruel,”Ruthsaid,“thewaytheyalwaysworkhimuplikethatButit'shisownfaultIfhelearnttokeephiscool,they'dleavehimalone”“They'dstillkeeponathim,”Hannahsaid“GrahamK'stemper'sjustasbad,butthatonlymakesthemallthemorecarefulwithhimThereasontheygoforTommy'sbecausehe'salayabout”Theneveryonewastalkingatonce,abouthowTommynevereventriedtobecreative,abouthowhehadn'tevenputanythinginfortheSpringExchangeIsupposethetruthwas,bythatstage,eachofuswassecretlywishingaguardianwouldcomefromthehouseandtakehimawayAndalthoughwehadn'thadanypartinthislatestplantorileTommy,wehadtakenoutringsideseats,andwewerestartingtofeelguiltyButtherewasnosignofaguardian,sowejustkeptswappingreasonswhyTommydeservedeverythinghegotThenwhenRuthlookedatherwatchandsaideventhoughwestillhadtime,weshouldgetbacktothemainhouse,nobodyarguedTommywasstillgoingstrongaswecameoutofthepavilionThehousewasovertoourleft,andsinceTommywasstandinginthefieldstraightaheadofus,therewasnoneedtogoanywherenearhimInanycase,hewasfacingtheotherwayanddidn'tseemtoregisterusatallAllthesame,asmyfriendssetoffalongtheedgeofthefield,IstartedtodriftovertowardshimIknewthiswouldpuzzletheothers,butIkeptgoing–evenwhenIheardRuth'surgentwhispertometocomebackIsupposeTommywasn'tusedtobeingdisturbedduringhisrages,becausehisfirstresponsewhenIcameuptohimwastostareatmeforasecond,thencarryonasbeforeItwaslikehewasdoingShakespeareandI'dcomeupontothestageinthemiddleofhisperformanceEvenwhenIsaid:“Tommy,yourniceshirtYou'llgetitallmessedup,”therewasnosignofhimhavingheardmeSoIreachedforwardandputahandonhisarmAfterwards,theothersthoughthe'dmeanttodoit,butIwasprettysureitwasunintentionalHisarmswerestillflailingabout,andhewasn'ttoknowIwasabouttoputoutmyhandAnyway,ashethrewuphisarm,heknockedmyhandasideandhitthesideofmyfaceItdidn'thurtatall,butIletoutagasp,andsodidmostofthegirlsbehindmeThat'swhenatlastTommyseemedtobecomeawareofme,oftheothers,ofhimself,ofthefactthathewasthereinthatfield,behavingthewayhehadbeen,andstaredatmeabitstupidly“Tommy,”Isaid,quitesternly“There'smudalloveryourshirt”“Sowhat”hemumbledButevenashesaidthis,helookeddownandnoticedthebrownspecks,andonlyjuststoppedhimselfcryingoutinalarmThenIsawthesurpriseregisteronhisfacethatIshouldknowabouthisfeelingsforthepoloshirt“It'snothingtoworryabout,”Isaid,beforethesilencegothumiliatingforhim“It'llcomeoffIfyoucan'tgetitoffyourself,justtakeittoMissJody”Hewentonexamininghisshirt,thensaidgrumpily:“It'snothingtodowithyouanyway”Heseemedtoregretimmediatelythislastremarkandlookedatmesheepishly,asthoughexpectingmetosaysomethingcomfortingbacktohimButI'dhadenoughofhimbynow,particularlywiththegirlswatching–andforallIknew,anynumberofothersfromthewindowsofthemainhouseSoIturnedawaywithashrugandrejoinedmyfriendsRuthputanarmaroundmyshouldersaswewalkedaway“Atleastyougothimtopipedown,”shesaid“AreyouokayMadanimal”ChapterTwoThiswasallalong

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